Can only agree with whats been said so far,My circumstances 48 yrs REALLY heavy boozing, But a lot of the time i couild drink so much/heavilly (maybe like you) I genuinly got fed up of it. I could then go Tee total for ages till i got fed up of that, These swings continued years and I like tio think they kept me alive, I have done the Rehab bit, Doctors advise, (kidney/liver) bits a few years ago, But sometimes its hard to take advise,
You have to do it YOURSELF but its great you have recognised that. It would be well worth trying my system ie stop a bit drink a bit, Till you master it! For